Day 3 following my new lifestyle – exercise, water water water, and little to no sugar…and I am not doing well. The depression has gotten worse, and today, I have a headache.
I am having severe cravings too, for something sugary and caffeinated. I really want to just jump in the car and go get a mocha frappe, and just put up my feet and suck it down. I have no energy to do anything, and now I have a horrible headache.
I wonder if this is what addiction feels like, or if I’m just having a really really bad day.
I was tired yesterday, but that was because I didn’t get enough sleep the night before. I got more sleep last night, and it should’ve been enough. But I just want to curl up in a ball and pass out, or zone out in front of the television with a big old cup of chocolate flavored caffeine and sugary goodness. But alas, I have responsibilities. I have 2 kids to care for, housework, meals to prepare, work-at-home responsibilities, etc… But my head feels like it’s going to explode, and before that, I just felt down in the dumps.
Instead of giving into the coffee craving, I’m brewing a cup of green tea which I plan to mix stevia into. I’m hoping that helps give me the boost I so desperately need and that my headache will subside.
I’m losing the drive to continue. This is why I’ve had such a hard time up to this point. I couldn’t physically commit without feeling like I was going to lose it or feel completely ill – headaches, etc…
Mental Health and Social Media
Last night, although I was late, I participated in the Mental Health and Social Medial chat on twitter, #mhsm. I “met” a few people with mental health issues, and they provided links to their blogs as well. I plan on checking those out today, if I have the energy and willpower. All I really want to do is break this mug over my head to make the pain go away.
On the upside – my allergy symptoms are well under control. That is something to be very happy about!
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