Falling off the proverbial wagon

I’m lame.  I’m no different than an alcoholic or a cocaine addict.

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Okay, maybe not that severe, but still…

I can follow the healthy lifestyle for a few days; then, without even realizing it, I’ve fallen back into old habits and feeling ill again.

I am so frustrated with myself right now. I cannot even begin to tell you.

I fell off the wagon, and it hurt.

I fell off the wagon, and it hurt.

I haven’t been drinking enough water.

I haven’t cut back on coffee; quite the opposite, actually.  I’m drinking more mocha frappes, and I feel like crap.  In fact, I get grumpy and feel like I need a frappe, or I’m going to lose my mind.  That’s addiction, am I right?

Ugh.  I’m feeling lazier than ever, tired, and just all around grumpy, and it’s my own damned fault.

I need an intervention, but an intervention of my own doing.  Seriously.  I started this blog to help myself stay on track, but I spend more time dropping on entrecard to promote my blog than I actually spend on trying to get healthier.

Somebody just smack me already.  I’m a stupid bitch.

I need a plan, and one that takes the forefront of my time. That’s what’s hard (here come the excuses!), because so much takes priority. My kids, DS1 is in school now, so we deal with that everyday and his homework, etc etc etc…. I work from home, and I have to do that…  Ugh – the excuses are mounting.  Basically, my brain is in 100 places at once, because I have so much to do and very little time to accomplish it all, so making sure I drink enough water becomes an afterthought until I realize my mouth is dry and I’m feeling tired and run down.

I’m retarded, and I seriously doubt anyone is still reading this post, because I’m basically just ranting about how friggin stupid I’m being.

Like, OMG this is so hard!  Like I said, I’m a stupid bitch.

Lindsay knows what I'm talking about

Lindsay knows what I’m talking about.

So, I’m going to get off this computer and draw up a plan to seriously just overhaul everything and just do this already.  Get healthy and make it right.  Stop making excuses and just friggin do it already.

Wish me luck.